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So I've become completely out of practice of writing or finding interesting things to say. So here I am again.. umm.. 3 years later revisiting the livejournal of years past. Does anyone still use this product?

I've completely sold my soul to facebook and forsaken all other blogging programs.

So life.. I really don't have anything to complain about right now. I recently started talking to a guy named Matt. I'm pretty excited about him because he's genuinely nice and he seems interested in me and eager to find out as much as possible. Its kind of a nice change from the Suzi of years past.

I've been glancing through some of these past blog entries and I realize that I've become a much more independent person in the past few years. I have to say I'm pretty proud of myself for that. There was a time in the not so distant past that all I wanted was a house on the hill in the country with a husband and babies. I'm not pushing off a dream of a husband and babies but I'm proud of myself for taken the initiative to live first if that makes any sense.

I achieved what I wished for my whole childhood. I got out. I've seen a lot of the world. I'm comfortable doing things on my own like seeing a movie or taking in a tourist attraction. Thank God for my husband and babies at 22 dream falling through because I'm pretty sure I would have woke up at 40 and realized that I wasted a lot of time.


Anyways so now I've done a lot and I'm trying to open myself up again to the possibility of maybe there is something there with this new guy. Its funny how out of practice you get with flirting. There was a time when I flirted a lot. I dont do it anymore and it seems almost unnatural now. There needs to be a book about how to behave when you think you might like a boy.

Anyways.. this was just a test. Not sure if I'll be blogging much.. Writing actually made me pretty tired...but I hope you all have a good weekend.

So it was brought to my attention that the last time I updated this was in April.. I was newly 23 and a spring chicken. Now I'm well into 23 and still a spring chicken. I'm not really sure what to say about the summer. I guess I'll recap starting with where I've been.

After Italy, I went to Jacksonville for a week of training it was neat. I also made the decision to switch positions in the company. So I moved to a different project. Still training just a different product.

With the new project I spent most of my summer in South Dakota which sounds about as exciting as it is. I started out with brief tour of Aberdeen and by tour I mean driving a mile and seeing all there is to see including our class site, hotel, Walmart and Target. Fantastic. Luckily I was out there with Jamie so it was bearable. One of my favorite anecdotes about SD is about the flight there. So first we leave Dulles and have to connect through Minneapolis. So we're looking for our gate and completely walk by it because its so small. We finally find it and it becomes apparent we're riding on one of those little 16 passenger planes. So we're boarding and it becomes apparent that everyone on the plane knows each other but me and Jamie. So I'm getting situated in my seat and realize my carry on doesn't fit on the plane so I go to take it to the front. Well my elbow grazes the Emergency Exit sign and it falls into my seat. I'm like oh shit. the exit sign.. so I take it up to the stewardess who proceeds to jam it back into the ceiling and say "all better". So our flight continues and everyone on the plane is chatting it up. So our stewardess lets us know that we're about to land and as the plane touches down the exit sign flies out of the ceiling and whacks the guy in front of me in the head. Hilarious.. Anyways we're taxiing to the airport and our stewardess comes on letting us know that we can pick our bags up at baggage claim etc. So we get out of the plane and proceed to look for baggage claim but find that we've gone too far so we backtrack and find "baggage claim" which is one small conveyer belt. So I tell Jamie to go get the car while I wait for our bags. She goes to the counter and the attendant says "You must be Jamie!". Wow... thats all I have to say.

I also spent time this summer in Cincinnati with Kelley which is really neat because we seem like we have a lot in common.

I was supposed to be in London last week but unfortunately all that terrorist crap happened and my trip got cancelled. What a bummer.

Anyways I just moved into my new apartment in Arlington last weekend. Crystal and I are living together again. It should be pretty fun but I'm not sure how much we're actually going to see of each other. It looks like I'm going to be spending most of the fall in Atlanta. And then who knows what the Spring holds.

I'm weighing my options of whether or not I want to stay with my company or not. Stay tuned for further updates about that.

Anyways thats the long and the short of my life right now.

Not dating much but thinking about it as I've recently started up convo's with a couple nice guys. We'll see though. I'm not rushing into anything.

So I'm in the airport waiting for my flight back to Fairfax...It seems like I'm never there so I can't really call it home. Kelli and I decided that home is where my suitcase is... so really I've got homes all over the world :-P

New Mexico has been fantastic. I enjoyed myself emmensely. Kelli is really fun to travel with so its no surprise it was a good time. I even ate Mexican food (Guacamole, yes I know its green and green chile). It was a good time.

I got to hang out with Seth last night and his girlfriend JoAnna. It was an interesting time. Nice to see Seth but he seems so grown up. Called it an early evening. Got some good Mexican food out of the deal though... how can I ever go back to Taco Bell filled NOVA?

It sure seems like everyone has a plan for life right now except for me. I still don't know what I want to do. I would keep travelling forever if that was an option. I love to see the world. I also would consider moving to New Mexico.

So when do you start feeling like a grown up? I have bills and an apartment of my own. I even have a table and chairs and a real job that pays a nice salary, but still no grown up notions here. I still feel like I'm free and I can do whatever I want from day to day. Aren't adults supposed to feel trapped in what they have to do?

I dont want to settle down yet. I dont want to worry about kids and husbands and things of that nature. Is it weird that at 23 (~cringe~) I'm not ready to give up myself yet? or really dont even know who myself is..

I guess I just can't imagine having a husband and children when I'm still not quite sure what I want from life. How can I worry about the needs of others when I'm still figuring out the things that I have to accomplish in order to feel fulfilled.

I know this is a crazy ramble and it probably all boils down to the fact that I've never been a really serious person. I like fun. I like to get the most out of life and maybe I'm too selfish to sacrifice that.

1.. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then ask you something that i've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your own journal.

Picture it Sicily...2006... Its really amazing. Take every picture or postcard or calendar you've ever seen of Sicily with the flowers and the people hanging clothes on lines outside the window and thats exactly how this place is. Its absolutely amazing. There are fields that stretch on for days and rolling hills covered in cactuses or yellow flowers or grape vines. I'm travelling with Kelli too which is amazing. She's by far the nicest person I've met at this job and its fun traveling around with her. Today, we toured Enna which is this beautiful little mountain town. We saw the Rock of Demeter which is a ruin of a temple to Demeter. We also saw ruins of a medeival castle. After that we went to this gorgeous lunch at a beautiful villa. Meals here are no short order. You start with the Antipasto (an appetizer or 12) and then you get pasta then you get a salad then you get your main course (meat or something like that ) then you get fruit then you get dolce (dessert). All the while drinking lots of wine. Then after dinner you either have a shot of liquor or an espresso. So anyways that was a great meal. We met these guys who are here for a few days so it was really cool to talk to them. The wine here is amazing.

Anyways we dont have internet so dont expect a lot of updates.. I'm at this enlisted club typing on a computer.


I hope all is well at home with everyone. Take care